Is it worth it?

today i realized how fucked up my life is.  Every guy have ever liked always would rather my bestfriend.  It's my fault really for have the two prettiest girls as my bestfriends and for once i want to be there choice and them not pick one of my best friends

• First let's start with David.  I fell in love with Dave in 8th grade. I am now in 11th grade and i am still in love with Dave.  I think this guy actual favored me over my bestfriends for a long time.  But yiu know being a girl and wanting to make it work i was persitent.  It got to the point were he didn't answer my texts and basically wanted nothing to do with me.  I did lose him to one of my friends tho.  She had been friends with us for about a year and she hate my guts and was seriously, no lie, out to ruin my life.  She knew i liked her but she still decide it would be best to make out with him, IN FRONT OF ME, none the less.  I had than lost him to a girl i called my friend.
• Next we have Nick.  Oh nick what a good story this one is.  Nick was in my french class freshman year and he was a junior.  It toke me about half the school year to decide that i wanted this boy.  So i did the typically i msged him on myspace like the cool kids.  We talked and started text and flirting in class you know i was working on this relationship.  One morning he nexted me and woke me up but you know of course it was about my best friend why wouldn't it be.  he asked for a number so i didn;t wanna be a bitch and i gave it to him at that was the end of all my chances with him
• Oops i forgot someone Tyler. Actually he was kinda the first and the second. I liked him in the very beginning of 8th grade year. But we had stop talking because he had switched out of my gym.  Then a few months later my best friend began to talk to him so of course i began to talk to him to and flirting again.  So my feelings came back and my friend knew but she still went out with him
• And now there is Chris.  Who i have been friends with longer then her just start talking to each other at the same time i do and now im gaining feelings for him and i haven't liked someone in forever but he would rather have her and i can't stand it because i wanna be the one who is pick first for once.

lifeee :D

life has just been official amazing.  last night i had a four loko for the first time it was fun and i love life.  i finally dont give a shit what anybody says.  im sixteen. i decided to just live life to it's fucking fullest im a junior is highschool and i'm suppose to make mistakes so im gonna make as many as i can while im still young.  if someone has a problem with that then fuck them(:

Sick

I'm sick & feel like crap thats all for today good bye!

First Blog?!

So I've been wanting to do this forever.   Since I have been checking out some people on here i decided it would be a great idea to document the days of my teenage highschool years.  The good the bad the pretty & the ugly.  For awhile I've thought of doing computer journals, blogs, & diarys but there just not my thing.  My goal right now is to write on this as often as possible I'm hoping to blog daily but I'll be happy with myself if i can manage to do three a week.  Well now that i got through the boring explaination part of this first blog let's begin the part of the blog where i explain my day.

I didn't do much today but I have been in the most amazing mood everrrr.  This morning i woke up at 12 o'clock after staying up till three in the morning watch youtube videos my most current addiction i can't stop.  I toke a shower & got dress & went with my momma and sista to kohl's which is why i am in the most amazing mood ever.  While there we spent 72 & had at least 130 worth of savings.  I got three amazingly cute shirts that are v-necks for 11 dollars each,  got gray converse which i have been dying for for only 35 dollars,  & a really comfy bra.  Yeah.  That might have been a little much.  My sister got a dress & a skirt.  At about 6:30 my best friend texted me to go to the mall but by the time i checked my phone it was to late & I ended up staying at home sitting on my computer for most of the rest of the night until i decided to do this while watching 17 again on my xbox.   Zac Efron is a beautiful human being by the way!

Well that's the end of my day. Blog tomorrow?  We will see what happens i guess but I'm gonna try[: