Is it worth it?

today i realized how fucked up my life is.  Every guy have ever liked always would rather my bestfriend.  It's my fault really for have the two prettiest girls as my bestfriends and for once i want to be there choice and them not pick one of my best friends

• First let's start with David.  I fell in love with Dave in 8th grade. I am now in 11th grade and i am still in love with Dave.  I think this guy actual favored me over my bestfriends for a long time.  But yiu know being a girl and wanting to make it work i was persitent.  It got to the point were he didn't answer my texts and basically wanted nothing to do with me.  I did lose him to one of my friends tho.  She had been friends with us for about a year and she hate my guts and was seriously, no lie, out to ruin my life.  She knew i liked her but she still decide it would be best to make out with him, IN FRONT OF ME, none the less.  I had than lost him to a girl i called my friend.
• Next we have Nick.  Oh nick what a good story this one is.  Nick was in my french class freshman year and he was a junior.  It toke me about half the school year to decide that i wanted this boy.  So i did the typically i msged him on myspace like the cool kids.  We talked and started text and flirting in class you know i was working on this relationship.  One morning he nexted me and woke me up but you know of course it was about my best friend why wouldn't it be.  he asked for a number so i didn;t wanna be a bitch and i gave it to him at that was the end of all my chances with him
• Oops i forgot someone Tyler. Actually he was kinda the first and the second. I liked him in the very beginning of 8th grade year. But we had stop talking because he had switched out of my gym.  Then a few months later my best friend began to talk to him so of course i began to talk to him to and flirting again.  So my feelings came back and my friend knew but she still went out with him
• And now there is Chris.  Who i have been friends with longer then her just start talking to each other at the same time i do and now im gaining feelings for him and i haven't liked someone in forever but he would rather have her and i can't stand it because i wanna be the one who is pick first for once.